In Honour of my Very Special Mum (Moomin)
Many people may wonder how losing my mum to cancer helped me to recover from my eating disorder when they would assume such a heartbreaking loss would have escalated my symptoms and finished me off. Well it nearly did, but fortunately for me I realised that life is short and we need to make the most of every minute, I made a promise to mum that I’d look after the family (as did they), and most importantly my recovering from my eating disorder was all mum ever wanted for me, more than anything in the world.
Don’t get me wrong, the urge to run closer towards my eating disorder was hard to resist at a time I was at my most vulnerable, grieving and processing the thought that I would never see my mum on this Earth again. But that is just how twisted eating disorders are, because they will try to take advantage of every bit of your pain and emotional fragility.
There are no words that can give my mum and her sacrifices the importance and gratitude they deserve, which is why I have produced a video to show people just how much she meant to me, and how losing her has saved me from spending the rest of my life with the restrictive eating disorder ball and chain around my neck.
If there was one thing to come out her death, I know she would be so happy that I have finally managed to free myself from my eating disorder. I just wish she had been here to witness it.
We did it mum!
Thank you for everything you did for me.
You can now rest in peace.
I love you xxx
